My grandma used to own a rocking chair of her own.. i wonder where it went to. I think my uncle's wife just gave birth. I think. I had a really nice night. Played badminton. :D i love my brothers so much. Syam joined us too.. nice match although I was a bit blur.. i missed a lot of shots! yeah.. i love sweating.. hee hee.. Adeen kept on telling me to run a lot.. and catch the shuttlecock.. and he told me that i could lose a lot of fat by doing that.. hee hee.. yeah.. i am still fat. not a pound lighter.. omg. now i'm stress!! hee hee... i LOVE CHOCOLATES! and now i'm fat again..
*i dunno how to do this.. my head is spinning.. i've been thinking a lot about this.. but what is it that i should actually doo.. Dear God.. Please Help ME.. i hate feeling this way..*
rite now, i'm having another headache.. it's not like i've not had any worst headaches than before.. but.. i dunno.. maybe i'm worried about something.. scared.. i am scared.
talking about it ease my head about it. oh well, i can never seem to stop thinking about it. i'm lost, i'm continuously wondering what is my purpose of living, i live for God. i live for my parents. i live for my family and those who love and constantly needing me..i wana do something. i'd get on my feet.. but somehow i will fall again.. i'm tired of that. i'm tired of me.. i've always been. will someone just help me get back on the ground?
