it's like a stone in my throat
it's like a fence between two spaces
that sucks into the ground
and lifts the whole atmosphere
down to the ground
i wish i could tell
to that terrible looking stranger
all wrapped in anger and pain
to get out off the mirror
and stop influencing me
with the danger that i might be facing
if i were to be
just like her.
yikes.
i'm toast.
Extremely random
and proud of it. Freak. ~ ok.. PreTTynuTt - not the best person to be with... right now.
i'm tired. i'm quite ill and i don't know how to reach out to anyone anymore. it's really hard to think right now. maybe i should just go home and slep! good evening~
i'm disgusted with myself. YUCK~~!!!
:) yesterday morning, as i was driving to school, i suddenly heard a song i used to love listening to - 'the way' by fastball... gila.. i so love that song!!!!!!!!! here's the lyrics to it.. :
They made up their minds
And they started packing
They left before the sun came up that day
An exit to eternal summer slacking
But where were they going Without ever knowing the way?
They drank up the wine
And they got to talking
They now had more important things to say
And when the car broke down They started walking
Where were they going without ever knowing the way?
CHORUS:
Anyone could see The road that they walk on is paved in gold
And It's always summer, they'll never get cold
They'll Never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows Wandering off somewhere
They won't make it home
But they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happier there today , today
The children woke up
And they couldn't find 'em
They Left before the sun came up that day
They just drove off
And left it all behind 'em
But Where were they going Without ever knowing the way?
Anyone could see The road that they walk on is paved in gold
And It's always summer, they'll never get cold
They'll Never get hungry
They'll never get old and gray
You can see their shadows Wandering off somewhere
They Won't make it home
But they really don't care
They wanted the highway
They're happy there today , today (repeat)
hehehhe...
and my days have been packed. there are so much in my mind and i miss my parents, bros, grandmas, cousins, friends and etc.
i'm really tired! can't wait for the holidays!
dated then the love message
i received it full of glee
promises
they're making me feel so confused
it's as though the words had used
ME
hypnotize
ME
and there's no more courage left in
ME
like a mouse i am trapped in a paradigm
somewhere i wish i had never got to
changes scare me
frightens me to the inner side of my bones
i can never breathe the word sincerely
to anyone
but
head high with confidence
heart sinking to the lowest of earth
drowning
smiles continuously
but breathing so hard
just so there is strength
shown to
i can never be the same
although i could never change
i will never say a word
'though my heart tells me to sing
and
will never know
will never be there
will never be the one to care
'though i believe that
will still remain the same
i choose to believe that i'm there
in thoughts and heart
in memories and times to come
will i ever say the words ever again?
would i be sure...?
she's the boss of the house. she took care of each of us single-handedly since we were young. she's like superwoman in disguise as a a mother and a boss of her own establishment. she could be the most grumpiest yet, most of the time she would sit somewhere to think of what's next for all of us. i miss her sometimes when she's been working her bones out. she's one of the most hardworking woman alive. she's been patient with all of us (her children) all these years and bit by bit, i guess the sacrifice she made is paying off. i love her. we all love her. this is a tribute to our lovely mother Marina MacPherson. the best Mommy in the world. love you MOM! *hugs&kisses*.
love your mothers. never hurt them because no matter what they did, they were the first person who had fallen head over heels with us - the first time they lay eyes on us... i guess, because that is what they would do if i could experience such thing.. :P~
VERSE 1:]
Pull up your pants, just like him
Take out the trash, just like him
getting your cash like him, fast like him
girl u wanna act like he did
I'm talking bout, security codes on everything
on vibrate so your phone don't ever ring
a foreign account and another one he don't know about
[Hook]
Wish we could switch up the roles and I could be that
Tell you I love you, but when you call, I never get back
Would you ask them questions like me, like where you be at
Cuz I'm out, 4 in the morning on the car rolling doing my own thing
[Chorus:]
What If I Had A Thing On The Side
Made You Cry
Would The Rules Change Up Or Would They Still Apply
If I, Played You Like A Toy
Sometimes I wish I did act Like A Boy
[Verse 2:]
Girl go ahead and be just like him
Go run the streets like him
Go home missin sleep like em, Creep like em
Front wit ur friends, Act hard when u with them like him
Keep a straight face when you tell a lie
Always keep an air tight alibi
Keep it hid in the dark
What he don't know won't break his heart
[Hook]
[Chorus:]
Can't be getting mad, but u mad, can't handle that [x4]
[Verse 3:]
If I was always gone
Hit the sun getting home (Would you like that?)
I told u I was with my crew when I knew it wasn't true
If I act like u
Walked a mile off in ur shoes (Would you like that?)
Messing with ur head again
Dose of your own medicine
[Chorus:]
Can't be getting mad, but u mad, can't handle that [x4]
R-A go, here's the clutch...
If I paged u (would you like that?)
Had friends (would you like that?)
With a car (would you like that?)
Hell Nah, You wouldn't like that, No!
What If I? If I, played You Like A Toy,
Sometimes I wish I would act Like A Boy
Can't handle that...
i think i am lost again
my mind's always been drifting away
further to the clouds
i cannot even feel the pain
i cannot even cry a tear
not to anyone
i used to laugh out loud
when people describe their feelings
their broken hearts
their loneliness
their pain
now that it's hurting me
it's as though it's bleeding
this heart of mine
it's as though my life's no meaning
no thoughts that could take the pain away
and i can never ever
say the words out loud again
the words that describe my longing to be what i once was
but i am glad
because maybe i am doing the right thing
and agreeing could be the best choice
for happiness could arise from the darkest of sorrow
if not i who could embrace that
then i hope that it'd be you...
i make a bad friend. i duno how to calm friends who are in need.. erghh...
sakit kaki.n my toe is killing me. i just got up from the cafeteria and i don't think i could make it to level 8 now. maybe i'll just go for law tute. almost everything is not right to me. everything's eating my mind bit by bit. why does everything have to happen at one time. this hurts.
